Monday, September 30, 2013

Trembling

So many before me have suffered I'm not the only one 
These words are keeping my heart from exploding like the sun

I've been banished from the warmth I'm grown accustom to.
To say I've been casted out is true.

My stomach fills now with just putrid venom poisons my head
See but rage and flames days in never seldom said

I'm in constant dispare
Set in my ways 
I'm ill; With faith; with love 
I can see all my errors nothing left unphased

Only after the present and future has blended in this is what I see 
God has marked my journey

He saw that I'd fail him not once but many times before
Ah but my reasoning may have the floor

I wanted to just fight for you
I wanted to win you 
 not once but many more for you knew

Abandonment of my God caused this soul to get sick and I'm left to.

I glorified a man and I was casted out
He defiled me with permission 
In the desert without any mission
Without food or shelter 
I've been deemed reprehensible 
Unconceivable 
Untreatable 

How the good lord has said in action you will not see me 
Hear me 

No man will ever forgive me; no other
I am the guilty that fueled me and I went against another 

The faint vision is of forever sleep
Hopelessness is all I see
Listen to me one last time, I'll comfort you, completely

But you bested me
You outgrown me and all my ways

You say the doors always open 
But you secretly locked it since that day
For all days 

To teach me a lesson with God at your side...
Forever abandoned 
Because of this pride...

Now my win is to go but not to a place that anyone can place their feet
Irradicate the disappointment to God 
I admit my defeat

Possible to not tremble but to compose and sleep.

I read and listen it's not all away. 
Can agony match whats eating me for always? 


 

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