The emptiness is profound
He has truly abandoned me
I feel no heavenly cloak
Because I left my culture I guess god is punishing me for good
Ill never hear him
He will never come to me in a dream
It's he who makes you question everything.
It's in gods plan his decision
Life long punishments
I controlled enough and now he is just watching me suffer
Linger in misery
I'm in misery
Yet I can't end my breathe
I have beings to raise
I'm in misery
Ill never know what really happiness is about
He is punishing me for being here breathing air
I didn't ask to be here
There's no cure
Except the cease of life.
God isn't there in death
He no longer calls the shots in death
No need to get on your hands and knees and pray
I can't wait to not be held to god stringent guidelines.
In death we only have death
You can't hurt people
You can't hurt your self
You don't have goals and expectations
You don't fall in love in death
You don't need to have sex
You don't need to orgasm
You just cease to be
Your light turns out
Bulbs burn out always
So if I leave this life I can't hurt the god that am suppose to devote my every waking moment for.
You can't disappoint a jealous god if you aren't alive to disappoint
How to live this world is the next process.
Pills, drugs. Inflicted pain cuts and others things aren't working.
God has evacuated me....
What would you do ... I'd rather burn out then be smothered .....
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