No more

I barely see a tomorrow
All that rots my time- I see every second of every day wondering why
I see no purpose for me here.
I knew so early so young that I dont fit
I tried to laugh it off but it was a lie.
I fished for a high because I wanted
No one to see
But even inside I just wanted to leave here
I see no purpose for me.
I try everyday to teach love to people around me
It's better that I don't see them see
Me.
I Hurt so much. My body just aches
I think about being in my elder years when people come to expect it
Even with me not hurting
I hurt cause I brought my children into the world.
Sometimes I wonder will they need me
I hurt so much though when I'm here all I do is cry.
Day in and out
I don't know why I so emotional
My heart just can't take
Anyone
I wish the end was sooner
I wish my days would come
Where the pain and the suffering would be no more.
I blame only person for why I'm still here
Me.
I had a chance to leave many moons ago but I didn't want to feel the drifting pain.
So I cowardly choose to stay and float
Worst mistake I've ever made.
these non decipherable- unconscionable words
I'm I here for a purpose
I can't wait until my last breathe hopefully I'll be in no pain
No more hurt.